Part Time Lion

Is there any way to improve one’s decision making skills? I’m kinda sick and tired of making shitty ass choices and then regretting them immediately afterwards. Maybe if I knew what I wanted well enough…

One of my biggest grievances towards life is how brutally boring it is. It’s been twenty years and I still can’t wrap my head around the utter lack of excitement in my life, compared to that of a fictional character.

Even now I’m still waiting to receive a Meteor Driver or a Power Stone, to get bitten by a radioactive spider or be involved in secret military experiments, to awaken as a Newtype or an Innovator or an X-Rounder, to time travel and cross world lines, to get enough money to make a suit that turns me into Iron Man or Alphas.

Even barring non-realistic situations, there is a disgustingly large mass of possible interesting events that are not happening to me, like being stranded in a foreign country or piloting a Gundam.

… What? It could happen!

But the truth of the matter is my life right now consists of little more than going to work and talking to friends (which isn’t bad at all, mind you) and playing BlazBlue once or twice a week (which isn’t too bad either.)

And that’s exactly where the problem is. Can I really settle for ‘not bad’? When I get older will I get a job that’s ‘not bad’? Will I be a father who’s ‘not bad’? When I’m about to die and my life flashes before me, will I be satisfied knowing that it was ‘not bad’?

Why is there such a huge difference between contentment and happiness?

幸せを掴めるには「ユウキ」が必要だ。それくらい分かってる。分かってるのに…

Man, even though I finally have a lot of free time I haven’t been writing much. Probably because I don’t have anything to write about.

Well, that’s not actually true. I have tons of things to write about. Just that I can’t turn any of my thoughts into words. I hate it when that happens.

So I turned 20 recently, and I don’t think I’m ready to be an adult yet. Much less a man.

And yet at the same time, I can’t help but get the feeling that my youth is coming to an end, with nothing to show for it.

There’s always that guy. One for all of us.

The guy who makes empty promises, but always has an excuse on hand in a futile attempt to shield himself from scorn.

You’ve seen it before. That forced smile. The serious look he gives when he says he’s going to try his best, and the way his eyes wander nervously after he’s obviously failed to.

And those excuses, those apologies. You’ve heard them so many times they grate on your ears. But all you can do is sigh and wait in dread for the next time they march unapologetically into your ears.

Man, I hate that guy.

Hello Tumblr. I missed you very much.

まぁ、自分の所為かもしれないけど、寂しいよ！

Lately I’ve come to feel that it’s hard to talk about anything of substantial intellectual depth without sounding pretentious. I suppose in an age of insecurity and trivial competitiveness, few people want to believe that others just might have something good to say.

It’s so hard to differentiate between the things I want and the things I need.

The house is looking gloomier already.

言うまでもない！

genta48:

前田敦子

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Super Street Fighter IV: AKB Edition

rabiscandoecriando:

Maeda Atsuko Street Fighter version?

I really would like a fighting game of Majisuka ^^